Hook:
There was pain, there was delight.
There was day, and there was night.
There was love, and there was hate.
There was hope, and there was fate.


Verse 1:
Darkness crawled over my shoulders as I stared out the window,
Heart beating at a perfect tempo.
My kinfolk had just left, what did I take?
I’ll ask myself later when I awake.
It’s late, so I pop a pill and drop in the bed
As a crazy fever dream goes to rush in my head.
Liquid lead, drinking poison, spilling red in the void and
Feeling nothing as I dream away my dreadful choices.
Voices screaming at me from heads with red eyes.
You’re lying to yourself, shed your tears or just die.
I don’t pay them mind, it’s only a dream,
But it’s still a little crazy just how vivid it seems.
A weight looms over as I fly through the clouds.
Something’s chained to my leg, it pulls me down.
I see the dark ground and I awake in a fright.
I’ve become such a mess, what a dreadful night.


Hook:
There was pain, there was delight.
There was day, and there was night.
There was love, and there was hate.
There was hope, and there was fate.


Verse 2:
I burst into tears as I awake and realize
What I had just lost, no one’s there to hear my cries.
I rise but don’t realize I need to eat.
Get liquor, pen & notebook, now take a seat.
A miraculous feat, to write at this time.
I rhyme because I need a solace to find.
The void they left in you is hard to fill.
But you’ll show them because you’re grinding still.
No, I need to stay real, not in some fantasy.
Where everyone’s happy, and everyone’s free.
I need to stay true to me, and the pain that I feel.
It’s as if my heart was pierced by a spike of steel.
I need time to heal, now I’m defacing myself.
They don’t know how I feel, grab a knife from the shelf.
Scars on my arms dripping blood like rain.
Somehow it keeps me going, helps erase this pain.


Hook:
There was pain, there was delight.
There was day, and there was night.
There was love, and there was hate.
There was hope, and there was fate.


Verse 3:
Wait, I realize it’s not my fault, it’s theirs.
They’re the ones that left me, I’m the one that cares.
It’s not fair, deserted over something I love.
I was dedicated, well I guess I needed this shove.
Cause now I won’t hold back, they were holding me down.
I didn’t have time, now in it I drown.
They hurt me, so I’ll retaliate in kind
Build aggression in words, and display my design.
I line the notes, and you’ll find I wrote.
At that time it was all just distasteful jokes
That I underline with all I despise
About them. I was abandoned, now I’ll surmise
that they’re horrible, and they ruined my life.
They’re the reason that I drink and cut my arms with a knife.
Now I’m rife with emotion. At my current rate,
There’s no limit to this feeling, now I’m rife with hate.


Hook:
There was pain, there was delight.
There was day, and there was night.
There was love, and there was hate.
There was hope, and there was fate.


Verse 4:
I guess it’s destiny that led to my demise.
Destined to be abandoned, destined for that drive
At 1:05 in the morning on the day of my death,
I only felt pain, all I did was resent.
I didn’t lead a full life, but I wasn’t met to,
Though I was able to share all the beliefs I kept to.
I’d expect to come out these depressing thoughts.
And show the world the beauty that I’ve always sought.
I fought with my brain, I fought to end pain.
I managed to write magic, but thoughts are insane.
This game we call life, It’s a beautiful mistress.
But one day, you’ll fight, and you end up with your wrists slit.
When crimson stains your clothes, you’re done with this curse.
At least you’re glad you got to spit one more verse.
October 31, now I remember that date.
I emptied the bottle, and I sealed my own fate.


Hook:
There was pain, there was delight.
There was day, and there was night.
There was love, and there was hate.
There was hope, and there was fate.


Verse 5:
It feels good to wake up and see the sun rise.
You find it’s a solace that ends all your cries.
So every time you get up and start anew,
You take time to think on what it means to you.
To me, it means souls, to me it means light,
Philosophy and thought takes the toll off my life.
To my right, I have the dreams that I couldn’t achieve
To my left I have the thoughts I could only believe.
So seize the moment, enjoy the calm walk.
Feel the sun on your skin, enjoy what life brought.
Your first thought they say, is to display your emotions.
Though you can always find a light in the darkest oceans.
And so sin’s your last thought, It’s time to go down.
You may find a light, but you might still drown.
I’ve found life is worse than what you put on display,
But at the end of every night, there’s a brighter day.


Hook:
There was pain, there was delight.
There was day, and there was night.
There was love, and there was hate.
There was hope, and there was fate.


Verse 6:
I guess I remember the good times I had.
A happy marriage until it ended so bad.
Maybe sad, but not horrible, good time in my life.
Full until death came and gripped me tight.
That night was the end, yet I fell in love.
I held the pen tight and refused to give up.
And so I found light, Invested in me,
my vision in sight, building my masterpiece.
I may have ceased, but I remember happiness
Before the death or dejection from abandonment.
I was a child once, not thinking ‘bout the world around me.
Guess that ignorance brought happiness, it came and found me.
I guess I now see that my life wasn’t bad.
It had a sad ending, but I can’t really be mad.
So I have everything now, It’s finally in sight.
The ending sucked, but my life was full of delight.


Hook:
There was pain, there was delight.
There was day, and there was night.
There was love, and there was hate.
There was hope, and there was fate.


Verse 7:
Some say it’s pain, but it’s a beautiful thing.
When someone loves you enough, they’re accepting that ring.
Funny thing, it’s not bad, you just don’t want to give up.
It’s a sad stipulation about falling in love.
‘Cause those five years were the happiest of my life.
Children running ‘round in love with a beautiful wife.
It couldn’t be better, my life felt stable.
I was happy, though it’s hard to keep the food on the table.
We weren’t able to sustain without killing ourselves.
I know it’s why we separated, why we fell
Away from each other and our loving embrace.
We couldn’t raise children like this, we had limited days.
When you’d say that you were leaving, I thought it wasn’t fair.
I thought you hated me, I spiraled into ceaseless despair.
Now I know you cared, but I guess that you had enough.
I understand now, Thanks for giving me love.


Hook:
There was pain, there was delight.
There was day, and there was night.
There was love, and there was hate.
There was hope, and there was fate.


Verse 8:
You thought it was over, but it just began.
Your true story started when you entered this land.
Broken down to sand, but I guess you still got up.
It seems impossible that you’d have this kind of luck.
You were stuck in the bottle, then stuck in those chains.
You were stuck in your thoughts, then remembered your brain.
Your memories remained there, ingrained in your soul.
You forget them for a while. Now they made you whole.
It may have took a toll, but now I know myself.
The wealth in my mind began to excel
And expand on all my living thoughts and beliefs.
Now in death it seems that there’s a level I’ve reached,
Where I can’t feel pain ‘cause I’m oblivious to it.
Went through it all, now feel I feel I found the answers through it.
I never knew it, but I’m climbing up a narrow slope.
But now inside me, I see infinite hope.